The words spewed from your lips with such ease that I was frozen for a moment. The immediate embarrassment I felt was your exact intent as you lashed out like a child. As you drove away, and I took a moment to compose myself, I couldn't help but wonder what was going through your mind at that very moment. I couldn't fathom saying something so random and hurtful to someone, and I wonder if, for just a fleeting moment, you regretted saying it. I wonder if you saw how ugly it was, if it made you feel as though you needed some kind of help. Those words made my feel sick to my stomach. Almost like you had placed a rancid Twinkie there, to rot and fester. I've replaced that feeling with something else though. I hope you have a better day tomorrow. I'm sorry for whatever has happened to you in your lifetime that can lead you to lash out like this, and I hope that in the future, good things happen to you to replace those moments. I hope you experience the true love of friends and a partner so that it becomes more difficult tom inflict pain on others, and I hope that one day, you'll look back at this moment with the same kind of embarrassment.
I will eat another Twinkie. They're delicious and filled with some kind of chemical greatness that keeps us fatties coming back for more. Possibly the same chemical greatness that insulates your trailer and keeps you warm at night.
Look, I said a bunch of nice stuff, you just know I had to say something bad...
1 comment:
I have to say it was really rewarding to just put it out there, and get it all out instead of letting it fester at me.
I should also note the wonderful power of meditation. Last night after I wrote this, I took a few moments to just meditate and let all the bad energy out. It was his, not mine.
Thanks for the comments, I really appreciate it.
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